what is happening to me? juz who the hell is the real me? a person who can be push around and be a ragdoll so that people can use me or am i juz a normal 7teen yr old guy who can make ppl smile always? i dunnoe. i dun even noe who i am. i mean i feel like i have two different personality. i hate my past. i realli do. i tot for the yr 2006,dis will be a totali brand new yr for me. as in, i wanna change my attitude,character and other stuff. i wanna be a new fazli which no one can pushes me arnd and stuff. i tot by going to sp, my life wud be different. how wrong cud i get. it was stupid of me tinking tat after several mths at sp,my old schoolmate wud treat me differently. as in treat me like a normal fwen. but again, i guess i was wrong. and i guess that nobody in dis damn world care boud me. ckp aje care tapi ntah ikhlas ke tak,i never noe. but now,i get to noe who my real fwens are. in the past,it was hard to decide who my real fwens are. cos they may claim they are ur fwens,but they are actuali using u. trust me, i noe.i had been through it a couple of times. i have learnt my lessons now. the oni real fwens are azura,dinie,afiq,atikah,emi and fasha. yups. they are my true fwens. yg lain,i dunnoe. its not i hate u all but its juz tat,haiz.nvm. so yeah,i am glad tat i have a blog where i can put my troubles away. and one more tink. I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING HER!!