what is happening to me? juz who the hell is the real me? a person who can be push around and be a ragdoll so that people can use me or am i juz a normal 7teen yr old guy who can make ppl smile always? i dunnoe. i dun even noe who i am. i mean i feel like i have two different personality. i hate my past. i realli do. i tot for the yr 2006,dis will be a totali brand new yr for me. as in, i wanna change my attitude,character and other stuff. i wanna be a new fazli which no one can pushes me arnd and stuff. i tot by going to sp, my life wud be different. how wrong cud i get. it was stupid of me tinking tat after several mths at sp,my old schoolmate wud treat me differently. as in treat me like a normal fwen. but again, i guess i was wrong. and i guess that nobody in dis damn world care boud me. ckp aje care tapi ntah ikhlas ke tak,i never noe. but now,i get to noe who my real fwens are. in the past,it was hard to decide who my real fwens are. cos they may claim they are ur fwens,but they are actuali using u. trust me, i noe.i had been through it a couple of times. i have learnt my lessons now. the oni real fwens are azura,dinie,afiq,atikah,emi and fasha. yups. they are my true fwens. yg lain,i dunnoe. its not i hate u all but its juz tat,haiz.nvm. so yeah,i am glad tat i have a blog where i can put my troubles away. and one more tink. I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING HER!!

omg lar. i totali forgot to update boud the class gathering and the bdae party at fasha's house. kk,lets get it started!!

31st august.

went to prcs back wif afq. sheereen plan to have a 4/6 gathering at prcs. but most importantly, the main tink we head back to prcs was to see our old fellow teachers and fwens. so when me and afiq meet the rest of our old classmates, most were mostly shocked at the way i dress. haha. they say i totali look like mat. wth. then arnd 1.30, we enter sch. it still looks the same arh except that the canteen looks more like a primary sch canteen. i still prefer the old tables and chairs. haha. memories dok memories. so the first teacher i had to find is mr chang,mr khalid and mr ismail. my dnt teachers lar. found mr khalid in the dnt workshop. even he tinks i look like a mat. ada ada aje lar cikgu nie. sheesh. then we found chang teaching his class in the 2nd floor. but being a 4/6 student, we juz bump in and shout out to him. haha. juz imagine lar. people from other sch are enjoying teachers day whereas prcs students have to study??? lolz. sedih sak. then we roam the whole sch. met some fellow peeps. zamree,sharizal and co. were playing rugby in class when they were supposed to be studying. lepak sak members aku nie. then the whole malay guys went to the former 4/6 class. our 4/6 logo was painted over. and the drawing of the rose on the door is gone. bloody hell. then we make our way to the canteen to lepak wif the malay guys. its so cool arh to have the chance to lepak together. then its time we go to cineleisure to watch movies. well,not everyone watch the movies. onli the chinese people go and watch the movies whereas the malay people go to esplanade! my favourite place to hang out. heh. took some pictures. then we began remenice (correct spelling??) boud the old days. its cool arh. then yana,aisha and aisyah had to go back early. so me,afiq,fasha and farhan went to lepak at the merlion. gerek dok! i had nutink to do so i took pics of myself. i tink i am beginning to be like azura. a camwhore. haha. wth. then the chinese people met us at marina square to have dinner together. i was juz about to enjoy my yong tau foo whne afiq told me he has to go back early. siak aje. so i gobbled up my food lor. then me and afiq got separate from the others after tat.

2nd september.
wake up early to play soccer wif my old schoolmates. ouh ouh! u wanna noe wat? i dun tink i can be a striker anymore. haha. i played better as a goalie. serious shit seh. the number of crucial saves i made. fooh. mcm peter schemeichel(how do u spell his name?? i tink din shd noe.haha) played street soccer from 9am to 1.30pm. 4hrs 30 mins siol. woah! haha. then me and afiq had to go home and changed cos we had to attend fasha's lil sis bdae party. met emi and yana in the bus 358 as we had no idea where to go. lolz. the juniors are waiting for us to cut the cakes. so we had to hurry a bit lar. cos we seniors love to chill oni. take tinks easy. the juniors played some games arh whereas the seniors try to help. but me,u noe wat i do? i try to make tinks more difficult for them lar. i was bored mah. and i was damn super ngantuk. so yeah. after the games,i went quickly to have some food or i wud die of hunger. heh. ate two plates of nasi briyani. yummy yum yum!! then it was karaoke time. sang for like 1.5 hours i tink. yeah,then i had to go home early to meet someone lar. heh.

damn sad today. one of my bestest friend who i can depend on has left to dubai today. i am toking boud azura of course. i reali reali miss the times when me,din and azura hang out together. even though i noe that i am not as special as dinie to her, but still.. the thought of her leaving behind reali make me sad. i am actuali like nutink to her lar, but no matter wat, i still treat her wif tender loving care. i noe i am a nuinsance to u and i make u guilty always boud sumtink. i am sorie. but i promise i will change since i knew the real reason why i made u feel guilty. u do not have to tell me. i had figured it all out. once again,i am sorie. and when i saw u hug ur mum,dinie and ur bro. lots of thoughts occur in my mind. the love they had given u. how special and unique they are to u. its juz so sweet lar. tats the reason why tears started pouring seh. some more when din cried. azura's mum had to pujuk her. i cant reali tahan. but i told myself to chill and stuff. ok,i am toking crap here. i noe i am being emo and stuff but so what? dis is my blog. my blog = my say. deal wif it. there is actuali one very important question i still need to ask u. am i juz an extra figure in ur life or sumtink? i dun mind if u say yes. well yeah. i am gonna miss u like fuck and i juz cant wait for december to come. i reali syg u sis!!!